What Do I Do?

I have this recurring dream that is semi regular at this point. In the dream I stand on the edge of a great cliff that looks around and is surrounded by air on three side and a treacherous hill to my back. Surely arriving at the top of this metaphorical mountain must have been an incredible hike. Yet as I stand on the edge and stretch my arms out to either side I feel fear inside my soul. As I stand the wind kicks up and swirls around me in the air causing the dirt to kick up and twirl on the breeze. Then a magnanimous voice from above says "you know what to do!" The voice says it with such ferocity that it is surely growing out of patience with me. "What if I don't make it?" I asked the body-less voice as if to start some ethereal conversation. "Then you know the other choice is" it loudly responds.

At first I thought that the dream was about depression as I felt like the voice was telling me to stand tall and what laid in front on me was a bottomless black pit that I should avoid. But sometimes I fall in the dream and I think it is not so bad, the fall isn't what scares me so much as knowing what awaits at the bottom.

But as I recall more and more of the night time scenery I am beginning to suspect that that message is different. I think that thing I am suppose to do is fly. Sometimes more recently I don't jump/fall off the cliff and then I die of old age just standing there afraid to move. That then would be the second thing the voice warns me about.

My brain is working through something where it is necessary to make a choice. I can either take a chance and go for it, which would be symbolized by jumping. Or I can remain on the cliff which would mean not taking whatever that chance was. If I don't jump, I grow old and die on the cliff having always been afraid of it but never knowing if I would fall or if I would fly. But if I take the chance and jump, I may fall but I may also fly. And flying would be the most wonderful thing my heart can imagine.

So do you let life pass you by? Or do you take the chance? Stand on the cliff? Or jump? The choice is yours.